Destined to Fail

It says:

 

Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!

when you said that you want to see me.. yes you told me more...

but when i said i will youre gone for i dont know why...

now im fine but now youre back dont know if its on the same reason..

but one things the same, it still twist my head..

yes im twisted... and i hate you..

for youre so VAGUE that id rather not see you at all than to let my eyes experience pain while youre here...

stop it...

stop being nice..
and stop being mean...

Rose, tara kape tayo.. sa Tagaytay.”

November 11, 2009

I woke up way too early yesterday. I believed I had slept around 12 MN then I got up at 3 AM. Well, I need to be at the office that early because I’ll be seeing Ram and Cyril after their respective shifts. I was at the office around 5:30 AM then Ram and I headed to SM Mall of Asia to fetch Cyril. Around 6 AM, we were there at the mall to meet Cyril.

However, Cyril had a call and he came out around 7:30 AM. Long call, huh?

First stop. We decided to grab a coffee at Starbucks while waiting for Rose and Ella. It’s funny because while the Barista was trying to build a rapport as we took our order, he just asked out of curiosity and this line was the one I will never forget:

“So, you’re a balikbayan right?!”

We laughed out loud and I answered back, “Hindi ah, taga Imus lang ako. We’re currently working at Makati“.

Let these pictures do the talking. *winks!

 

i bought a Persian cat. withdraw everything ive worked for within this cut off. nothing left! hay...
how will i survive till the next salary come? T_T

why am i so in love with cats!!! huhuhuh...

nararamdaman ko na ang lamig ng hangin sa tuwing lalabas ako ng umaga galing sa aking kwarto. ang pagka lambot ng liwanag na tila dapit hapon at nagtatago ang araw sa mga ulap. nakakarinig ng mga pamaskong tunog at nakakakita ng kasiyahan sa aking mga nakababatang kapatid. pero ako? napapangiti ako ng ganitong panahon,, at napapaiyak ang puso sa tuwing iniisip ang buhay.

nakakaramdam ng takot at pangamba na magkamali balang araw. na hindi ko mapuntahan yung gusto kong puntahan at doon sa pagsisisihan ko pa..

hindi ko alam..

napapraning na naman ba ako??

o sadyang gusto ko lang mag emote...

hay!!!!
hehehhe..

siguro nga nakaka move on na ko at nasasanay sa pagkawala niya. siguro nga kaya madali na akong makatulog at excited na pag magkikita kami nung isa.. siguro nga talagang panahon nalang makakapagsabi.. it really takes time to heal wounds..

siguro nga ganun nalang yun.

sa totoo feeling ko nakakahiya ako dahil sa mga naramdaman at ikinilos ko..

pero atleast, mas makakapag focus ulit ako sa totoong sa akin..

at hindi na mangarap pag arian pa ang iba..

siguro na..

wag nalang sana siyang

..magpakita ulit.. T_T

it was my fault to make you feel like that.
it was wrong that ive said a lot about you.
it was me who never understands you.
im sorry if im not worth it..

but i love you deep in my heart,
others may come and go,
i know ive been wrong thinking you were not meant for me..
but now, or even in the end...
youre still the one..
youre still the last one standing..

i need you and i love you honey..

im sorry for everything...

please trust me...